Happiness is a Luxury

warning emo post

When I woke up today I still felt numb by the events that happened yesterday. My sister woke me up and asked about the lomo camera. I did not want to wake up. My eyes were still heavy. I know my sister is very excited so I had to talk to her. I pointed out where the lomo cam was. Then I blurted out we broke up. Somehow reality sank in. A dark cloud surfaced and followed me all through out the day.

I know that will be fine but I can't help to be sad today. When I was on my way to work I was listening my ipod I stumbled into a song that somehow reflected what I felt. It was Madonna's The Power of Goodbye.

Your heart is not open so I must go
The spell has been broken, I loved you so
Freedom comes when you learn to let go
Creation comes when you learn to say no

You were my lesson I had to learn
I was your fortress you had to burn
Pain is a warning that something's wrong
I pray to God that it won't be long
Do ya wanna go higher?

Chorus:

There's nothing left to try
There's no place left to hide
There's no greater power
Than the power of good-bye

Your heart is not open so I must go
The spell has been broken, I loved you so
You were my lesson I had to learn
I was your fortress

Chorus2:

There's nothing left to lose
There's no more heart to bruise
There's no greater power
Than the power of good-bye

Learn to say good-bye
I yearn to say good-bye

Right now I am still trying to figure out what to do next.

K made yesterday very special. He kissed me on my cheek and greeted me happy monthsary. Gave me my early birthday gift, treated me with coffee and pizza...then told me that can't give his commitment because he can't give his time. He broke up with me.

Maybe next month on the 28th I greet him Happy breaksary my non-bf.