Happiness is a Luxury

I made a blog entry last night with my Pocket PC and blue toothed the word document to Brian's computer today. I was happy since it worked and I don't have to install the pocket PC to my computer. Unfortunately I discovered that I had only saved half of what I wrote last night. This is the half of my entry

"I miss blogging. If I had a PC right now I would have frantically pounded the keyboard keys in order to transcribe the events of the. Instead I am manually writing this in my pocket PC and maybe find a way to transfer this to the PC tomorrow. Oh well beggars can't be choosers.

I got a lot of topics to blog about so I will try to remember all of them.

First things first I want to write about the sudden departure of a close friend. I have known this guy since we were in high school. We call each other siblings in blood lust since we both share the interest in literary vampires. We wrote to each other our travails and torments. Every now and then I loose contact with him but somehow we find ways to reconnect. For me he is my best friend since he knows all of my secret dark ways. I could always tell him anything and I know he won't pass any judgment.

When I went here in Cebu to train I wasn't that worried that I would be lonely since my best friend in here. He had actually made a living here and so far he is doing well. When I got here we couldn't meet up because of conflicting schedules. He work at a call center. After 2 weeks finally l got to visit him at his place. I was very happy for him because he already acquired a lot of stuff of his own. He told me how he loves his place since he can finally do what he wants.

We a lot of catching up to do. We talked about old friends, failed relationships and Whatever our minds stumbled upon. It was late and we really had to go to sleep. It was a workday the next day.

I couldn't sleep right away because the was new to me. Then things got kinda weird. My best friend tried to kiss me. I pushed him away and laughed. I found the situation very ridiculous. "

My entry was quite long and somehow I can't seem to find the right words to finish this entry. Somehow its in the vast abyss. Since its super the entry is super bitin I'll try to summarize what happened after.

After a few days of the incident my friend PM me that he was going away. He quit his job, and broke up with his girl friend. He did not explained the reasons. (crap I liked what I wrote last night I'm too distracted with work right now that my words comes out as super bland.)

sigh...I can't seem to find words to finish this entry....

I have passed photos for the Penshoppe lomography exhibit. Finally the poster for exhibit is out. It's in Glorieta 4 July 18-27, 2008. I want to go so that I could see if the photos I passed is there but at least I did see one picture in the poster. Yey! (see the red circle)

I asked my bf if there is a thing, place, movie, whatever that reminds him of me.

He replied sweet november

I was kinda touched becaused i like the movie. So I asked him why.

He didn't replied. I called him up he said he ran out of load.

Today I asked him again why.

He because that is where he first saw her...

I wondered to myself...what is he talking about.

Background info before I asked him the question we where talking about Hancock and how charlize theron was also in that movie.

Then it dawned to me....he didn't get my question. He must have got mixed everything up.

So I asked him the question again...then he admitted that he didn't get my question.

And I thought it was sweet...leche...

Sigh I had another bland

weekend.

I can stay at home and not be

bored but unfortunately I

can't stand staying at the

place I'm renting. It's to

too quiet, sad and boring.

I already have blogged about

my boredom a million times

already.

Trying to find distraction

from my boredom I went book

shopping last Sat. I have a

low budget since I still have

a week to go before my first

payday. I was looking for a

really long novel that costs

300+ max. I first went to

powerbooks. I couldn't find

any that seemed to suit what

I needed. I only reserved for

the twilight book.

I was really intrigued by the

twilight book so I went to

national to try if they have

a copy. Still they didn't

have any stocks. But I did

find books there. The classic

novels only costs 99. I

bought catcher in the rye,

david copperfield and scarlet

letter. I really wanted to

read the classic novels but I

didn't have the time then. I

finished catcher in the rye

in two days and right now I

am starting on David

Copperfield.

I'm planning to buy a

portable dvd player so that I could watch movies and tv series. I did find a cool one which costs only 8k+. its has a tv tuner (so I could watch local ads), and it also have a usb port. Hopefully by payday I could finally buy it.

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I feel like a geek here in Cebu because my usual day consists of work and home. I'm glad work occupies most of my day becuase I don't like going home. It is soooooooooo boring. I read a book, play none sense games with my pocket pc, or listen to music with my sister's ipod. I got all the time in world to do the muni-muni...

Reading Norweigian Wood made me think about a lot of things. It made me think about past relationships and my recent one. This what happens when you have lots of idle time.

I should think of another way of spending my time because thinking about the past is definitely waste of time. I miss my computer and internet. There are no internet cafe nearby so I am really stuck at home after work.

I'm such a loser....(sure ko nalipay na tong mga members sa i-hate-melissa club).

Yes I am really in Cebu...after my almost everyday count down the past week. The week was busy with work. I am finally busy with work unlike last time I was busy with blogging. hehehe

The first few days were fine but thursday came and the homesickeness was really getting to me. I was super bored since there was no computer, no tv (I am not really a tv person), no radio and no one to talk to at the place where I stay. I live at my auntie cousin's monter-in-laws house. She has a big old house and she lives with two helper and one boarder. The place is ok. I can't go out late or go home late since people go to bed early and the gates are always locked. Anyways back to my story...Thursday night I was super blue and so texted anyone I could think of. I even text an ex because I was very curious about his new gf.

Its funny what people say during breack up...he broke up with me because he says he has no time blah blah blah...and he says that after me he will not have any relationship becuase he will focuse in his career. ok, ok, ok.... (anyways I am really glad he dumped me because if he hadn't they he would still be my bf and....I wouldn't meet Uly....you know the story na). Even though he was kinda a jerk pero I forgave him and treats him as friend. i know exes can't be friends pero ako kasi I don't keep grudges and what is past is past. So when I learned that he has a new gf. I was excited for him. I mean finaly hopefuly this girl is the one. My relationship with him didn't work out doesn't mean he will be a bachelor forever di ba? I was happy kasi nagdalaga...I mean nagbinata na siya! hehehe

Unfortunately I really didn't get to know his love story because inaway ako ng "asawa" niya. I was shocked nagkagf siya tapos may asawa na daw siya. I texted him, nangungumusta lang. Then a reply said the bakit ko daw text asawa niya. So I texted his friends and asked if its true nagasawa na siya. May new gf daw.

I am not new to this situation. How many times inaaway ako ng gf ng ex ko or gf ng close guy friends ko. Most of the time I just laught it off. Bit this time i was really ticked. I guess I was just PMSing. Hello, wala in all means akong planong nakawin asawa mo...I really wanted to tell that girl whoever she is. I was happy sana for my ex pero ngayon...I was to shake his hand and say good luck na lang. hehehe All my the crappy he did came back to me. The more that I WILL NEVER EVER...hopefully he will treat this girl right this time. Maski super insecure tong babae to I still pity her if ever he treats her not right. Babae din ako (well most of the time) so I don't want to see fellow babae treated bad di ba (maski inaway niya ako for no such reason). hahay....basta masasabi ko na lang magsama sila dalawa. I think they deserve each other i hope nagasawa na nga sila For real.

Anyways back to my happy happy self...I enjoy my first week at work. I got super a lot of things to learn and I am challenged well maski super starters pa lang at di pa fully loaded with projects. Iba na naman atmosphere. Sa old office ko it was mostly guys and they all talked about computers most of the time here kabaliktaran. I guess I feel finally at home. Made me say to myself this is what I really want to do. I wake up and I do want to come to office kasi may tatapusin ako and I want to do it well. Unlike noon. I felt like I was paid to surf the net. Dito walang stupid rules. Walang blocked sites (well bawal pa rin pumunta sa porn), walang restrictions sa computer, you can eat (and we constantly eat as in), tapos we watch series at luch time. Even though may freedom kami sa net pero wala na kasi kaming time magfrolick with non work related stuff kasi busy nga.

Tapos I love na may creative meetings kami. Talk about cool and uncool adds. Tapos you could feel that the discussion is open to everyone. Sir Zen is cool kasi. A boss that you can really look up to (unlike noon past time namin ridicule the hypocrite christian pamamaraan ng admin). Buti na lang at I enjoy the work dito kasi kung hindi Uuwi talaga ako.

I got one new city to explore, I got new officemates to get to know and I got a new work that I must master...what more could I wish for (well meron sana nandito si Uly).

:)