Happiness is a Luxury

I feel like a geek here in Cebu because my usual day consists of work and home. I'm glad work occupies most of my day becuase I don't like going home. It is soooooooooo boring. I read a book, play none sense games with my pocket pc, or listen to music with my sister's ipod. I got all the time in world to do the muni-muni...

Reading Norweigian Wood made me think about a lot of things. It made me think about past relationships and my recent one. This what happens when you have lots of idle time.

I should think of another way of spending my time because thinking about the past is definitely waste of time. I miss my computer and internet. There are no internet cafe nearby so I am really stuck at home after work.

I'm such a loser....(sure ko nalipay na tong mga members sa i-hate-melissa club).

Yes I am really in Cebu...after my almost everyday count down the past week. The week was busy with work. I am finally busy with work unlike last time I was busy with blogging. hehehe

The first few days were fine but thursday came and the homesickeness was really getting to me. I was super bored since there was no computer, no tv (I am not really a tv person), no radio and no one to talk to at the place where I stay. I live at my auntie cousin's monter-in-laws house. She has a big old house and she lives with two helper and one boarder. The place is ok. I can't go out late or go home late since people go to bed early and the gates are always locked. Anyways back to my story...Thursday night I was super blue and so texted anyone I could think of. I even text an ex because I was very curious about his new gf.

Its funny what people say during breack up...he broke up with me because he says he has no time blah blah blah...and he says that after me he will not have any relationship becuase he will focuse in his career. ok, ok, ok.... (anyways I am really glad he dumped me because if he hadn't they he would still be my bf and....I wouldn't meet Uly....you know the story na). Even though he was kinda a jerk pero I forgave him and treats him as friend. i know exes can't be friends pero ako kasi I don't keep grudges and what is past is past. So when I learned that he has a new gf. I was excited for him. I mean finaly hopefuly this girl is the one. My relationship with him didn't work out doesn't mean he will be a bachelor forever di ba? I was happy kasi nagdalaga...I mean nagbinata na siya! hehehe

Unfortunately I really didn't get to know his love story because inaway ako ng "asawa" niya. I was shocked nagkagf siya tapos may asawa na daw siya. I texted him, nangungumusta lang. Then a reply said the bakit ko daw text asawa niya. So I texted his friends and asked if its true nagasawa na siya. May new gf daw.

I am not new to this situation. How many times inaaway ako ng gf ng ex ko or gf ng close guy friends ko. Most of the time I just laught it off. Bit this time i was really ticked. I guess I was just PMSing. Hello, wala in all means akong planong nakawin asawa mo...I really wanted to tell that girl whoever she is. I was happy sana for my ex pero ngayon...I was to shake his hand and say good luck na lang. hehehe All my the crappy he did came back to me. The more that I WILL NEVER EVER...hopefully he will treat this girl right this time. Maski super insecure tong babae to I still pity her if ever he treats her not right. Babae din ako (well most of the time) so I don't want to see fellow babae treated bad di ba (maski inaway niya ako for no such reason). hahay....basta masasabi ko na lang magsama sila dalawa. I think they deserve each other i hope nagasawa na nga sila For real.

Anyways back to my happy happy self...I enjoy my first week at work. I got super a lot of things to learn and I am challenged well maski super starters pa lang at di pa fully loaded with projects. Iba na naman atmosphere. Sa old office ko it was mostly guys and they all talked about computers most of the time here kabaliktaran. I guess I feel finally at home. Made me say to myself this is what I really want to do. I wake up and I do want to come to office kasi may tatapusin ako and I want to do it well. Unlike noon. I felt like I was paid to surf the net. Dito walang stupid rules. Walang blocked sites (well bawal pa rin pumunta sa porn), walang restrictions sa computer, you can eat (and we constantly eat as in), tapos we watch series at luch time. Even though may freedom kami sa net pero wala na kasi kaming time magfrolick with non work related stuff kasi busy nga.

Tapos I love na may creative meetings kami. Talk about cool and uncool adds. Tapos you could feel that the discussion is open to everyone. Sir Zen is cool kasi. A boss that you can really look up to (unlike noon past time namin ridicule the hypocrite christian pamamaraan ng admin). Buti na lang at I enjoy the work dito kasi kung hindi Uuwi talaga ako.

I got one new city to explore, I got new officemates to get to know and I got a new work that I must master...what more could I wish for (well meron sana nandito si Uly).

:)

I wanted to blog a blog a lot of things but becuase I had lots of things to do I didn't have time to sit down and blog.

First I want to share two notes that officemate Ares left in the drawer that I used at my former office. (i found the notes when I was emptying it with my things)

i really find the notes very amusing. I do miss Ares' blog post, He used to post chibi drawings of the event of the day. The creative team used to have access to the office scanner and Ares made cute blog entries. He was inspired the bitter stick girl blog.

My last day at Hubport was kinda sad since I had spent a year with them. The longest I had stay with a company. I am not saying I am not loyal or whatever but somehow there were unfortunate circumstances and so I didn't stay for a certain company too long.

I did learn a lot from Hubport. I found new friends. I even found a certain special someone... A year with Hubport was a very colorful one. Now I'm in the long list of exhubport peeps.

This is my last week here in Davao. This Sunday will be my flight to Cebu. These week I was busy with packing, getting all my requirements done, and meeting my friends. Even though I want to maximize my time and made a schedule but nothing ever goes by my plan. There are very hot days and rainy evenings that made my plans out of whack!

Right now I got two days to go I STILL got tons of things to do and the list never seems to cease! Somehow I have finally 85% of my packing. I could not pack the rest of the 15% since I still use them like the ipod, cellphone, planner and the pocket pc.

I am having a headache with my Pocket PC. First it would not connect with my computer. Then there is something wrong with the battery. Later I think I have to install again the games. grrr

Today and tomorrow will be a busy day. I will watch The incredible Hulk with Uly and his sis and then I have 7 pm dinner with high school friends. By 10 pm i got drinks at MTS with ex-officemates. Then theres also coffee with grade school friends...i still don't have a confirmation with them though. Tomorrow I will at Croc farm with my high school barkada and then 5pm mass with family. Then there will more packing.

While I am busy with everything I am constantly listening to Tokio Hotel's song Durch Den Monsun

Durch Den Monsun lyrics

Das fenster öffnet sich nicht mehr
Hier drin' ist es voll von dir - und leer
Und vor mir geht die letzte kerze aus
Ich warte schon 'ne ewigkeit
Endlich ist es jetzt soweit
Da draußen zieh'n die schwarzen wolken auf

Ich muss durch den monsun
Hinter die welt
Ans ende der zeit
Bis kein regen mehr fällt
Gegen den sturm
Am abgrund entlang
Und wenn ich nicht mehr kann, denk'ich daran
Irgendwann laufen wir zusammen
Durch den monsun, dann wird alles gut

'n Halber mond versinkt vor mir
War der eben noch bei dir
Und hält er wirklich was er mir verspricht
Ich weiss, dass ich dich finden kann
Hör' deinen namen im orkan
Ich glaub noch mehr dran glauben kann ich nicht

Ich muss durch den monsun
Hinter die welt
Ans ende der zeit
Bis kein regen mehr fällt
Gegen den sturm
Am abgrund entlang
Und wenn ich nicht mehr kann, denk'ich daran
Irgendwann laufen wir zusammen
Weil uns einfach nichts mehr halten kann
Durch den monsun

Hey! Hey!
Ich kämpf mich durch die mächte, hinter dieser tür
Werde sie besiegen und dann führn sie mich zu dir
Dann wird alles gut - Dann wird alles gut
Wird alles gut - Alles gut...

Ich muss durch den monsun
Hinter die welt
Ans ende der zeit
Bis kein regen mehr fällt
Gegen den sturm
Am abgrund entlang
Und wenn ich nicht mehr kann, denk'ich daran
Irgendwann laufen wir zusammen
Weil uns einfach nichts mehr halten kann
Durch den monsun...

...I can't understand a thing because its in German still love listening to it. I also reading Twilight watch a russian novel (its already translated in english.).

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while waiting for ten o'clock i tried cool tutorials from PSDTUTs

Lately I have been bitching my bf that we watch Kung Fu Panda. Finally I did get to watch the film. It worth all the bitching I did because I really love the movie. I got a spot for pandas and I also love Jack black. I would definitely buy a copy of he movie.

Watching the movie wasn't enough I ate Kung Fu panda shake shake meal at Mcdo. Nagpakababoy ako with fries, nuggets and coke float. Made me grin afterwards.

I got two more days to go. Finally got my clearance form. I pack the last of my stuff here in the office which is my mug and my glass.

I'm excited, nervous, and sad at same time. I really don't know what awaits me in Cebu. I know it will not be easy at first but it will definitely make my life more interesting, Change of scenery and change pace of lifestyle.

Hopefully I will make ends meet without my parents help. I will definitely be in a state of poverty but I am glad to let go of vanities. I will put my mind set on the NEED and essentials.

My fingers are itchy to post blog something.

Then what should I post?

Well I just post random things hehehehe

First a song that seems to reflect my current move to Cebu



- Sara Bareilles Lyrics

I want to post pictures.


Here is a random picture of Uly. I told him to smile for me but instead he gave me this constipated smile.

I would also share a lomo picture of me. I was finishing the last few shots of Meg's fisheye.
Lately I am back to reading books again. I am currently reading my Daywatch book. I'm planning to buy more books to bring to Cebu. Luckily I got one person to buy me a book that I wanted for a long time now.

Next week will be my last day in my Office. It's sad to leave but one must leave one's own comfort zone in order to grow.

I got two weeks to go. Hopefully I do get to spend time with my ex officemates before I go. I must also start packing.

Yesterday after reading Marga's blog entry I was inspired to write what happened to me last Monday. Unfortunately I lost my entry post when I clicked Preview & SpellCheck. I couldn't recover the lost text...and to think it was about how my Tuesday was better than my Monday.

This week is getting very interesting everyday. Monday, I was super devasted by news of going to Australia, study care-giver and not going to Cebu. Tuesday, I saw ex officemates because It was Doodz's birthday breakfast.

Today I got an offer to stay with my current company. I wonder what tomorrow would bring....

I don't know if I am sad because I am leaving Davao or I am just PMSing or the sad events of the weekend.

Two consecutive weekend was wasted because of the planned "scuba". I wanted to do try it for a once-in-a-lifetime experience but plans just never go my way.

Saturday I was just bumming out at home and getting depressed looking at friendster and multiply. Everyone seems to be having some summer time fun while on the other hand is wallowing at home! I saw Uly then I went to attend mass since I was supposed to be out on Sunday. Then we had a family meeting.

I was not actually a meeting. It was more of announcement since my parents have already decided. It was the official talk of going to Australia in a year. I know my parents just wants the best for me and my sister but....I feel wretched thinking about it. I still got a year though to figure things out and plan my escape hehehehe

Sunday morning I walk up early to get read. (with the talk of Australia in my mind) I was really disappointed when I learned the scuba thing did not push through. I have been dreaming about it for a couple of nights. Louie is sick and many can't go so it was finally canceled. Since I was up I called Uly to meet me at Mcdo to have breakfast there. I felt I needed to eat my favorite hotcakes. Unfortunately Uly was late and he had a family meeting also.

When I was at Mcdo I saw a bunch of foreign guys. Than made me think again of Australia. Every though I am trying to avoid that subject it keeps on haunting me...I even saw a stuffed Kangaroo later that day.

When I finally saw Uly I coudn't swallow back my tears any longer. I really didn't cry when we were at mcdo. We got to Uly's place I just cried my worries out. We didn't go out. We just stayed there. We didn't even went out for lunch. I went home around 4 pm since Uly had to go home to Nabunturan.

When I got home my sister invited to go to sm to have her fisheye pictures developed and to watch Sex and the City. We got to SM around 7 so we decided have the pictures developed and to watch the last full show.

The movie took my mind off things and somehow made my day better well til my father scolded my and sister for watching the last full show. He said it was dangerous because only a few people watch at time. Funny to think the people I saw watching the movie were females and shemales...hehehe

I got three weeks to go and I hope I will have better days.