Happiness is a Luxury

I have been brooding oever this post for how many days now.

Writing love letters for me used to be easy. Words just flow. After a couple of relationships words and promises doesn't mean that much any longer. It's easy to say the sweetest things. It's easy to say that you will be there but when in your deep darkest moments they are not there. It's not that I don't believe in romance anymore. Maybe this is just part of getting old.

I remember when I wrote a notebook full of love letters or the time when I kept on drawing a guys face. I used to love to make scrapbooks of mementos of dates, events and other silly what nots. I took a lot of pictures with him (or her). I gave things that meant so much to me.

But when your relationship is over. All those things doesn't mean anything anymore. It's even painful remembrance of what used to be. It really makes me wonder on how one person was everything to you one day and mean nothing the next.

Sometimes it makes me wish that I didn't have relationships with them so that there would be no break up. Be just friends.

But relationships doesn't work like that. The is always a beggining and an end. As I am forced to end my connections with the past I am now builiding a new one.

I feel old when I write about realizations about love.

All of this ramblings started when I thought about writing Uly a letter. Somehow it's different with him. I don't want to write the sweetest letter and not mean a thing. I want to do it right. He is a very no none sense guy. I on the other hand is very EMO.

I hope one of these days I will find a voice to write down how he means to me.

its one a.m. again, I found myself again still sitting in front of the computer...

I had just finished watching the movie Factory Girl. The movie was only a doorway for me into Edie Sedgwick's life. The movie was sad and depressing but the real story behind the movie is even more haunting.

Andy Warhol is one of the names of the artist I studied in my modern art class in college. I love his pop art. There was a time where I was intrigued by the cowboy movies he made. Apparently there was more to him than his art.

Hahay...artists and its sad storied behind them.

Siene Miller made a good performance in the film. I couldn't resist to googled the real Edie. She was definitely beautiful. She was like a fire who burned out quickly.

I have spent almost most of my day in front of my computer.

I am addicted to building my lomohome. It's not yet finished but when I finish pimping it up I will definitely try entry the lomohome challenge and win some piggypoints!

I'm also working on the poster for exhibit this coming weekend. I got to sort through my photos, take pictures, print my pictures and meet with fellow lomodavao peeps.

I'm excited for my online purchases to arrive. Hopefully next week I will finally get them.

I do pray that I will assigned back to the morning shift. I need to have my beauty rest back!

want to see "Urbandub" performing live, again?

nabitin ba kayo sa kanilang concert sa Kai's Bar nung March 15? nothing to worry...you can see then performing live again this March 28, 2008 @ Jickong's BBQ Hauz..

urban nyts ..a one night summer break-out rockathon featuring the Cebu based band Urbandub with our local bands:

• Go Larry Go
• Quasar Project
• Gravity 404
• Maybe Someday
• Plastic Butter

It's a summer break-out you'll never miss...

Ticket is only 150 pesos with 2 beers..

For tickets and more information, just text this number:

• 09204967705 (jikong)
  

I had to post this. hehehehehehe

Ever since I discovered blogging developed a passion for it. Unfortunately there are people who disagree with I have posted. There was a time where I had to chose between the person I have a relationship with and my blog.

Guess what I chose my blog.

My blog is my own personal space to vent out to the public what I want to express. My life is an open book and if you can't accept who I am then there is nothing I can do about it.

I know I sound bratty and bitchy.

When I started blogging no one really reads my blog which is fine by me. I am not really after an audience. I just want to write what I feel. Then eventually a couple of my friends read my blog. I was an EMO blogger then so people somehow misunderstood what I wrote there. Still that did not stop me from blogging.

I had a long pause with blogging because there was a time I can't easily access the net. When I got back to Davao my blogging days are back.

There are a couple of times when I had to delete blog entries because someone requested me. I really did not want to do it but I also did not want to have an argument with anyone. I had to say bye bye to my entries even I felt like I'm erasing parts of my life. (drama ko nu?)

Right now my blogging have entered a new level. Somehow I earn from my blogging and I have a small audience with my blog(its more of minuscule).

Right now there are tons of things I want to blog about but there are certain rules than binds me from doing so. For now I will blog about the lighter side of my life.

For bloggers out there! Be brave! Let's Blog!

It's already Mid-March and still I have not accomplished anything from my lists of things to do!

I had a ym conversation with a friend and a fellow graphic artist. I asked her how was she. She said that she was still busy with work but well compensated. I said to her I on other had was the opposite to that. Then she said that its more important to have a high quality work and a good portfolio rather than work experience. She said to me that I should learn to adapt to mainstream kind of style in art, something a cross between what the client wants and is also aethestically beautiful.

That made me thinking. My portfolio is shit and work experience is also not much...where does this leave me?

I am probably way behind compared to my peers. My a number of my batchmates are already working abroad. People I know from my OJT are working at TV stations. My artists friends has developed their skills...I on the other hand is a 25 year unaccomplished graphic artist. hehehehe

Its kinda depressing but I'm not really sad or worried. Even though I don't earn that much, I don't make portfolio worthy work related task but still I am working on my personal art. It's not really much but still makes me happy.

Ewan ko ba bakit naging contented and happy ako lately....

BUT I must get out of this comfort zone. It's not good for my Career.

So I MUST do major revamping with everything.
First I will revamp my
1. deviantart
2. behance
3. coroflot
4. Multiply

I will do major updates on my
1. portfolio
2. resume

I am not saying I am applying to another company but I will prepare my stuff since I have plans of going to Singapore (basta anywhere but Davao) to work there.

I must also finish my
1. Project 25 (on its final few stages na)
2. start my art blog
3. Finish my flash portfolio so I can get my certificate at First Academy
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huhuhuhuhu ang dami ko pala dapat gawin huhuhuhu and I dont know where to start.

"You shouldn't have used blue ball pen on signing the Insurance papers."my Father scolded me the other day. I on other hand don't really give a damn about what color of ball pen I used.

When it comes to finances in the household my Father is the one who takes care of that. He wanted me to fix my Phil. health. Since I did nothing he found another option. He got me health Insurance instead. I have no idea on those things so all I did was go with him to have my medical check-up. Then later signed tons of papers. I just did what he told me with out really checking it out what was the insurance really about.

It's important to have insurance. I don't have valuable assets to insure. As I looked it up there are tones of different Insurance not just health insurance. Theres health, disability, property and what not.

They can cover many things like vans, Motorcycle Insurance,house, travel, courier and even pets. You are not only thinking about the current situation but also looking forward in the future.

I may not be worrying much about this things but eventually when I have acquired properties, start my own and really think about my future I will definitely think about Insurance. It's better be ready than be sorry.

Who doesn't want to have a perfect body or look young forever?

I always wonder how celebrities have the perfect bodies or how do they stay looking young. One thing they have the money to do every necessary to maintain their looks. Hollywood or even local Celebrities really take of themselves since they are more selling their looks (and talent) rather than doing common day jobs.

I even read that these days these cosmetic surgery is already common and accepted.

"To me, Botox is no more unusual than toothpaste"
Simon Cowell

Image it's not just women even men are already conscious of their looks.

Men and women these days are more conscious of their appearance. It's not just celebrities! Working mother's, career women, even housewives, doesn't want to look baggy worn and old any longer. There are lot of options out there. Exercise, diet, spa treatment, and then there's Cosmetic Surgery too.

I have been trying to loose weight. I have my pilates thrice a week, I lessen my food intake and I even have Chromium drops (which I don't know of it works) still I have a fat tummy. If only I have the money or if it's not scary and yucky liposuction could be a good option( I was surfing the net when I stumbled into Breast Enlargement UK which I saw before and after pictures of liposuction). But then again dream on Melissa. hehehe

If you the money would you consider it?

Jeremy was my officemate in Iyagi. I really love his works. He always got the perfect score when it comes to the company's point system (but we do have speculations he make "special close door favors" for Mr. S. tsk tsk tsk). He is the one who has the raunchiest emoticons and the source of all evil este he is the one who gave the link to extreme japanese manga (I mean extreme blood, perversion, S&M, everything you don't want to think of). Desipite that he does cute stuff for children which is ironic. Here are some of his stuff. You should check out his deviantart page.
Presenting Master J!


magical maggot tree n stuff by ~cocteautwins on deviantART
BEBI TEKI by ~cocteautwins on deviantART
fart selling by ~cocteautwins on deviantART

Surprisingly I was at home on a Saturday night. With nothing else to do and armed with a new bought DVD I had my personal Horror movie marathon. The Dvd promised said 40 in one but I think is just lame way pirated dvd's are marketed. (I am not promoting pirated dvd's but where could you buy decent Asia horror movies? Well definitely not in your friendly Astro Vision). I couldn't really make out the English titles of most movies in the DVD since it's in Korean, Japanese and Thai.

I watched the first movie which was Alone.

Alone (Thai: แฝด, or Fad, literally "twin") is a 2007 Thai horror film directed by Banjong Pisanthanakun and Parkpoom Wongpoom, a duo whose debut film, Shutter, was a box-office smash in Thailand and other Asian countries. Alone stars Thai-German pop singer Marsha Wattanapanich in her first film role in 15 years.

The movie is ok I guess. Not really that scary. I almost fell asleep halfway the movie. The pacing was kinda dragging. The scaring attempts were nothing new. The usual long haired ghost...I wonder why do all ghosts look alike?

I kinda liked the plot twists. It's nothing really new though. If you really want a twisted sisterly love plot you should watch tale of two sister.

I don't recommend this movie to hard core horror movie addicts but for the normal folks this could be scary.

The second movie I watched is Red shoes. I love shoes and a horror movie about red shoes definitely drew my attention.

The Red Shoes (Hangul: 분홍신, Revised Romanization Bunhongsin) is a 2005 horror film written and directed by Kim Yong-gyun. It is inspired by the fairy tale of the same name by Hans Christian Andersen.

This was a better movie than Alone. I liked the cinematography and the play of colors in the movie. The scary tactics were effective since there where images that kinda stuck at my memory. Still its not the type of movie that scared me shitless.

There were lots and lots of blood. The first scene was already gory where you will see a girl's feet cut off. I was kinda sleepy by the movie Alone and somehow my thirst for blood guts and gore came alive again.

The story and plot could have been done better. The ending was kinda off. The main character became crazy that's the time where the movie no longer made sense.

Its another typical curse movie. You get a cursed object, you find out why it's curse then when you think your off the hook the curse still kills you. Yehey for the Mumu's!

This movie could have a potential for a good movie but i guess they just overdid it. For the record the shoes in the movie was not even red its was hot pink.

The last movie I watched was Cadaver (that's what it said in the subtitle). I was just flipping from the Korean, Japan titles and the starting seemed interesting.

The Cut a.k.a Cadaver is a new korean horror movie (made just last year) directed by Son Tae Woong. The Cut made headlines with its sexy, provocative poster featuring a female silhouette. The Cut also makes use of a state-of-the-art cadaver model to enhance realism and visual scares.

Compared to the other movie this is not ghost movie. It's more of killer or slasher movie. At first you might think its your usual curse movie. I thought the medical students where just cursed and haunted by the dead cadaver they were working on. It's more than that. The cadaver/ghost was just a bystander. The evil mad doctors are the one to blame. One must never play God.

You will see lots of dead body in the movie since it is set mostly in the autopsy room. I loved the medical school campus. I wished my school looked like that.

This movie has more human soul compared to the other movies. It should the emotions and frustration of most medical students and its not because of the bloody cadaver. You got to know the characters.

Then everything turns hell when one after another is being killed. Actually from the group only two actually killed the nerd and the slut. Then there was one who became insane...oh he got killed also. Then there was suicide. There where two people left in the end the love team which consist of almost necrophiliac embalmer's son and the sweet nice looking girl (who is by the way the daughter of the cadaver and the professor who is possessed by a one eye doctor with a polio who is the one who does the killing spree). That basically wraps the movie in its complexities.

I don't know if its applicable to all Korean horror movies but does everything becomes damn crazy in the end?

Oh well I did have fun watching those movies. Definitely made up my staying at home during Saturdays. I still have more films to watch though from the DVD I bought.