Happiness is a Luxury

my sister had her cyst removed..

I had a very interesting Sunday.

its my third month in my current relationship. K is in town. I wanted to see him but with his busy schedule I don't expect anything. He texted that we will see each other at 8 pm. Four hours and thirty minutes later he was waiting outside my house. It was already 12:30 am and technically the so called monthsary is over. He was late because there was no water...no one wants to go their date smelling like chicos... It was late so I just snuck out of the house. This was a very very stupid move!!!

K and me had a burger at whistelstop and i told him about how fucked up my ancestors are. We went back. Be parked near the house and talked. I asked him what is his realizations after three months.

Guess what he is not yet ready for a relationship. Well its not really a surprise for me. He had spent his 27 years alone. I guess I'm outside his comfort zone. He says right now he needs all the time in the world for his career since he is still building his.

If I were a normal girl this would definitely suck. I mean someone preferring you over work. But I am not really bothered.

This is funny...If i were my normal self I would have dumped K already. I mean I want a guy or girl to fight for me, to choose me...you know the typical romantic knight in shinning armor.

I guess I got challenged with K.R

Right now I'm in a phase of my life when I want to take things slow. In the past my relationships were like race tracks. I was in a rush to get to the next level.

this is my last text to K:
Dont worry about me. Nasanay na ako na busy ka talaga. Alam mo kung you really need alone time just tell me. I'll understand naman. Mas ok na honest ka and tell me everything kaysa make up excuses. I know your building a career and yout future. I'm here for you. Sa tingin ko kasi your worth the wait naman. I know you cant change overnight. Hopefully may good effect ako sa yo. Happy third monthsary. Lets just take this one step at a time ok?

On another note. I was caught by my parents. They found out that I was still out and it was already 1 aM! while K was telling me his realizations my mind was thinking about what would happen to me when i get inside the house.

There is no way to come clean so I made a letter and confessed. I gave them a brief bio about K. I told them not to worry since I have no plans in marrying K. I wanted also to add that they should not worry even though I snuck out at 1 am because I have my period and obviously I did not do the nasty elsewhere.

The funny thing is when I wok up this morning my parents did not say anything and my allowance was even raised.

Just as I had said to K. Honesty is a good thing!

I am really busy with tasks that I can't seem to write a nice decent blog entry!

I had to face my fears yesterday. I went to check out the results of the Digital Photography contest. Oh well I did not even get to be in the top 20. I was very anxious about it since its my first photography contest. It is been a long time since i entered any contest that i have forgotten that i get so tense with the results at times. hehehe I felt crappy yesterday since an officemate pointed out to me that my piece for the contest is shitty! When I went home I did not want touch the camera ever...but that was yesterday. Now I am challenged! Ok my first contest was crappy but that will not stop me from entering contests.

I am kinda desperate with money earning lately that I am filled with none sense ideas on what to do.

entering contests is one of them....but its a gamble
hmmmm I NEED SIDELINE!!!!!

lots of things to blog but no time to blog.

so maximize blogging time i will write about today

today...

is Ozzie's birthday!
the MICT digital photography contest deadline
my sister's cyst operation
i will meet the new designer Myra
my pilates schedule
meet K

hmmmm

My days are filled with tasks from C and C.
I am bullied by G ,G and A about A.

I miss N.

I hope K misses me.

hehehehe

XOXO

(well its not really gossip girl like...but this post is inspired by it. can't wait to see EP 5)

For the those who love movies at their weirdest I recommend these. Usually teen flicks means sweet, mushy and candy coated movies. These movie s are the complete opposite.

Adolescence can be very brutal.

Teen angst at its best.

'm at my wits end with coding the Landing pages for the client. I have not finished one single page and I'm suppose to do eight. I'm looking forward to see someone and I cannot because he is sick. Sigh.

I have cough and colds. I'm upset and broke. What a nice way to start the week.

Right now I want to go somewhere I am alone and weep.

Time off with working on my art. I am going to civilization. After a couple of saturdays with myself i need human interaction. So here I am Saturday night and planning on an outing with my officemates. Hopefully if I do get drunk I won't bite someone. Last time I got REALLY drunk a friend of mine had to tie me up to prevent me from bitting her.

i saw a few seconds of K and i think i already got his colds.

Dímelo, por que estas fuera de mi
y al mismo tiempo estas muy dentro
dímelo sin hablar y hazme sentir
todo lo que yo no siento

Después yo te veo y tu me miras
vamos a comernos nuestra vida
yo no voy a conformarme inventándote
siempre ha sido así

Porque ya no puedo despegarme de ti
cuanto mas quiero escaparme mas me quedo
mirándote a los ojos sin respirar
y esperando solo un gesto para empezar

Dímelo, por que estas fuera de mi
y al mismo tiempo estas muy dentro
dímelo sin hablar y hazme sentir
todo lo que yo no siento

Dimelo suave, dimelo fuerte,
dimelo suave, dímelo por fin de una vez

Me gusta de ti, lo mucho que me gustas
y que poco me perdono yo de mi,
no tenemos nada que perder
y tenemos demasiado que vivir

Dímelo, si o no quiero o no quiero
dímelo y después olvídate de todo
dimelo,l as cosas buenas siempre son asi,
y las malas que se alejen ya de mí.

Dímelo, por que estas fuera de mi
y al mismo tiempo estas muy dentro
dímelo sin hablar y hazme sentir todo
lo que yo no siento

Dímelo, dímelo, dímelo

Since I gave K a time off with me. I am rekindling my forgotten affair with tall, grungy, long haired, Caucasian guy. Well not really Caucasian. I just want the perfect nose, the mischievous smile and the mysterious hot guy.

Takeshi Kaneshiro

Johnny Depp

Joseph Fiennes

Brandon BoydsdGael Garcia Bernal

Diego LunaBrad Pitt

Looking at these guys can really make my day! Ok ok I know this is very corny of me but when your single is it a crime to admire?

D. Love:

Introhan sa nako ha drama man tihay ni
Mga kaigsuunan naa kitay usa ka sulat na boot
magpatan to
aton cya itago sa pangalang mel
karon atong basahon iya sulat
(music)
handumanan sa usa ka awit

Mel sent file "kenthemail.txt"

D. Love:

og karon ato na pagasugdan ang sulat ni iday
Mel
(music)
oo mga kaigsu unan ako ng nabasa ang sulat mag
tatampo

Mel: basa na nimu?

D. Love:
oo
karon subli natong pagahisgutan ngano naing
ani ang relasyon sa duha ka banay
Inday Mel, sa nakita nako sa duha kaninyo...
ang kualng lang is pag sabot sa usat usa
by the way lami jud ba tong chocolate?
balik ta..
isa jud sa problema sa mga babae is
mabuutbuuton
abi ninyo once muingon ang lalaki or nag
pakita ang lalaki na dili cya ganahan.. like for exmple text

Mel: mabuutbuuton?

D. Love:
it doest mean na he doesnt like it..
yes mabuut buuton
girls always lock thier self kay nag tuo cla
na pag ang lalaki muingon na dili dili jud na
well nag kakamali kayo dyan

Mel: Mao ba

D. Love: 
yes mel

Mel: 
ana man gud siya last time na asar
daw siya sa akoa
akong gi text
i was just joking
di ko naman nagmotor diay siya adtong
panahona

D. Love:
guys always shows there luv in harse way na
girl misinterpret it...
u know wat ganito lang yan.. nasuko tahay ko
karonn cge sample ni ha
"Unsa man ka mel wla ko halos tulog, wlay
klaro akong sked kay bisan kanus a ko pwede pa trabhuon.. kablo ka kapoy
kaayo ako lawas"
mao tahay na ang nigawas sa iyang bibig
sa iyang dibdib inga ani ni

Mel: Na unsa?

D. Love: sample na
"unsa man ka mel kablo ka nga kapoi ko.. naa
tana ka dri ba para na maglambing sa ako. maghilot sa ako.. manawag
tana ka. text pud oi"
mao na gusto niya ipaabot sa imo..

Mel: Ah...(nod)

D. Love:
wat im telling you is dat mu ingon tahay ko
sa imo

Mel: 
pero ano daw ibig sabihin na he
wants me pero di naman niya ako priority

D. Love: yesss dats it
ang harse.. ehem sakto ba ni spellin sa harse
basta
mao na ang giingon ko na harse kaayo ang mga
lalaki.
it is not wat he means ganito yan i want you
to always be ther for me

Mel: maski busy kaayo siya
hello i have needs to!

D. Love: tahts complicate everything
u know wat naa jud mga tao na bisan og luv
nila ang isat isa
gusto na lng ipa iral nila na friend or d
nata
kay ngano
It's not Luv
nga hard i sustain eh
Its the commitment taht complicates
everything

Mel: wow very deep ah

D. Love: (CLAP)
nag lisod ko english ato da
heheheh

bitaw mel... D man lisod ang sitwasyon ninyo
it just kinahnglan lang na na mag sabot lang
Sus oi ngano naa pa man jud na
heheheh
ako 20 years nako dala dala ani.. mabasa ra
ni og maligo... hehehh

Mel: hahahahaha

D. Love:
bitaw try lang jud explore sa mga
consequences sa u action sa inyo duha ni kenth

Mel:I let him be

D. Love: ayaw lang kahadlok og mailang nga dapt mutxt
ka or watever na ndapat ninyo buahton.... its just a matter of
commitment
Lisod ang naa commitment no?

Mel: of course
lalu na paghalf bake ang isa ka tao

D. Love: ayon

Mel: he is married to his job

D. Love: hehehehehe

Mel: can't compete with that
mao gani pabayaan ko na siya

D. Love: 
no once ina ana u mindset tapos cya paugat
pud bisan luv ka nya... U will end up losing each other... i know in the
end hahanap hanapin ka ron nya heheheh
ikaw pa
Man cant liv without girlzz that a fact

Mel: mao gani im not giving up on him
i just let him be sa work niya
kay bz man gyud ang tao

D. Love: gud to hear taht

Mel: kung dili bita manungbaling ana
mingawon bitaw na siya
hahahaha

D. Love: mao mao

Mel: 
kung magduol duol na pud siya bantay
lang! hehehe joke

D. Love: 
dats wat makes life so wonderful. d lang naa
appreciate ng karamihan

Mel: 
its ok ra man sa ako wala siya. I
understand na naninibago pa siya having a relationship with another
person

D. Love: Conclusion ko jan..
It is not Luv thats hard to sustain... its
the commitment that complates everything